Another year has come and gone. June 15 will forever be a day that I dread. Though not so bad as August 22. What in the WORLD was i thinking when I agreed to get married on his birthday!? I must have been drunk(I wasn't but eh! still!!). It is coming up rather fast in the future and of course it is on a saturday. A day that I work. For once it could be on a day when I dont work!
I believe that I have reached the anger part of grief as recently I will wake up just seriously pissed off at steven. Pissed that he would have the GUTS to leave me. Mad and upset that he cannot come back to me. It is natural to go thorough this but I wont even lie.. IT SUCKS!!!!! I just want things to go back to the way that they were before... I will take the 40+ hour work weeks, I'll go to all of the doctor visits and to the wound clinics.

I miss his voice....
I miss his jokes...
I miss the practical jokes that always pissed me off... never failed
I miss the hugs...
                   the kisses...
and most of all......     I miss the cuddles.

Slacker...

I have really slacked off in writing on my blogs the last months... so much has happened and there is so much I want to share so I'll give the condensed version.

In November I went too CNA school and December I started my new job. Needless to say I love it even though there are some days that are stressful.  I am in the memory care unit and love it and my residents.

Christmas came and went and last of December my best friend had her precious baby boy who I love so much. That sweet baby boy can make me smile so big!! He has this eyebrow thing he does and it reminds me of steven.

I aquired a new vehicle this spring/summer (depending on what you call may). It's the first vehicle I have bought brand new and I'm so proud of myself! I know steven is super proud of me as well.

Saturday I had an actual GIRLS NIGHT OUT! The first since steven passed. It was so relaxing and fun. We went out to Willy D's in LR and sang the night away.

Last but not least... today is my 26th birthday. Another year gone by that steven can't be with me to celebrate. It's been a chill kind of day... slept in a little bit then went to my sisters with my brother and his gf.

So that is my life the last few months... and with the 2 year anniversary coming up the 15th I'll be around I'm sure.